Life is THE deception..

moved

2009-08-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

storiesfromthatguy is gonna stop publishing

and is moving to live journal..

for more info...

get to me personally..

i r aint gonna make it THAT public

haters and stalkers can go fuck urself

i'll be waiting

2009-08-12T02:33:00.001+08:00

i think theres sth wrong with my internet browser..cus i cant view this stupid blogger template thingy correctly...so..no fancy posts by me..again! w/e i dun care..

anyway~~~ i'm here to post after 3 weeks of school which has been a enjoyable hell so far... projects projects projects... and i kinda suck at them..tbh i suck at drawing and design composition n crap like that... but well...thats wad school is for..to learnnnnnnnn
anyway...i'm probably gonna be changing my major in nafa...from graphic design to probably advertising... well cus...so far...my art skills aint exactly 'breath taking' and i'm more of the idea and bullshit kinda guy... so i guess thats where my true strength are...gonna ask my teacher-in-charge more soon. mom is already in favour to it... lets just hope its gonna be a smooth change.

yes...i have officially quitted WoW due to extreme projects and homework and another reason :)
i feel kinda bad leaving my guild behind and etc...
but life has to move on.... i would most probably play WoW again in e future...we'll see

but cut to the chase... i'm here for another reason..
the past 3 weeks of school..has been wonderful
not because i'm phyco and love rushing homework
but cus there is something...someone to motivate me to go..
u seldom here e words 'I WAN GO TO SCHOOL NAO.....'
thats like seeing a cow jump over a sun (beeeeef)
i want to care for that someone..
i want to love that someone..
thats all i really want...

i wanna hold ur hand
i wanna hug u
i wanna kiss u
i want u for myself.
only for myself.
i love you

drug addict?

2009-07-24T22:37:00.006+08:00

well...at this moment of time blogger is fucked and the template is all shitted up..n i cant be fucked...although this is not my usual layout of my posts...but this will have to do till its working again n i'll just edit the whole damn thing.

sorry for my crude language n shit...but i'm really not feeling very well...since school has started and my 'engine' is 'warming up'. i cant take it..yet..my body is still holiday mood and my cocked up biological clock makes me sleep really late...or not at all..n i threw my sleeping pills away..cus well..its bad...and right now...i'm fucking exhausted...great news is..i cant sleep, n my sleeping pills are gone..n i'm going into a small withdrawal...n i'm having e worst time of my life now...anyway i'm here to rant my brains out hoping i'll just die...or wadeva that comes next

1st week of school...pretty good actually..i aint pissed at school for making me feel i am now...its my own fault..n ya...w/e moving on....1st week of school..my classmates are really cool :) i usually dun talk so much till like...2-3rd week? but yea...even without a proper orientation..i feel like i've known em fer like...real long..maybe cus we're all just friendly people OR half the class are 'forest students'(quote from a teacher whos english is cocked...yes 1st week of school n i'm messing with them already...idc..thats me)/foreign students...so i guess the locals just clusters tgt naturally lol. But wth man...1st week of school n the assignments are already flowing in..lol..which is pretty alright...just kinda lol that 1st week of school n BAM here u go...homework..have fun...i foresee a crazy future in nafa in terms of projects n stuff...am i prepared? who knows..just bring it on...

Sam raimi is the director for the upcoming world of warcraft movie!

(fyi he is the director of the spiderman movies, drag me to hell etc...)this is gonna be epic! but the movie is estimated to be released in 2012...after spiderman 4 2011...oh...n time burton is gonna be directing alice in wonderland...i foresee something dark..crazy and really mentally disturbing.. i like....

its too soon

its hard to tell

but wth

u're killing me inside

in a good way

w/e it is

my heart says u're special

time will tell.

schoooool.

2009-07-20T03:15:00.002+08:00

school starts in 9 hours time!!

*this is my 100th post o.o*

time flies

so do chances

My days are numbered

2009-07-14T18:37:00.002+08:00

dusty dusty..

i was lazy to blog...

bite me..

anyway...

school is starting!

tmr is my 'orientation'

which is pretty screwed up

cus it was suppose to be a whole day event 9am-5pm

but cus of h1n1

they changed it to only 12-2

wtf..

was looking forward to meeting new people..

oh well..

next monday school starts

got plenty of time to make friends

i can't bloody concentrate...

i need to get alot of stuff done..

but it always ends up half done..

i cant finish the damn thing..

1.my drum cube designs..

2.my composition..

3.other zingo design stuffs..

4.my new costume idea...

i have sooo much time..

but i aint doing anything.

zzz

needs helppp.

even in wow..

i'm slacking

tbh..

i aint even playing recenlty..

only raid nights i'm playing..

other then that..

i'm just online....running around dalaran doing nothing.

and just like in real life i cant get things done in wow

i wanna level my pally

i wan level my shammy

i wan level my warrior

pui..

will be crashing TP lecture on thursday!

eh just realise its rare for me to post so early..

its only 6.44pm!

why?

cus server down -.-

ok..imma gonna get myself a hair cut..

MIGHT be trying something out new..

MIGHT

i want a new 'style' for school :p

CYA

i will convert my heart into a song..

my song..

the beat of life.

the heart, hurts

2009-06-15T03:46:00.003+08:00

heya people

its 3.48..

n i cant sleep.

kept telling myself i wanna go to bed at 2.

but i just srsly cant sleep.

maybe blogging is gonna do the trick.

my back is aching to e max.

its fucking sore n painful.

i don't know if its sth i did in drum

or my sleeping posture was wrong last night

the point is.

it hurts..

n i cant do much about it cept sit still..

been playing with the garageband application

on my macbook.

trying to compose my drum composition

but my tracks just dun bloody fit..

my tempo for each section don't compliment to each other

thus sounds of utter rubish n torture

i cant keep my tempo constant

its a bloody huge wake up call..

YES wow has been finally installed onto my laptop

along with all my addons n stuffz

EF attempt on yogg25 was soooo dissapointing..

we had a whipe-fest for like 3 hours

and on our final attempt b4 we call it a day

we whiped to the enrage timer of 10mins

with yogg at 1% health.

totally wtf..

some peeps had to go

so we called it

anyways..

we'll get him week for sure!

with the heart

we feel

joy

excitement

pleasure

hope

all thru the heartwarming effects

that puts our mind at ease.

our soul at ease

it releases the tension of our body

the warmth to strengthen the mind.

but it too..brings

pain

hatred

suffering

regret

jelousy

the sharp pain that tells us we are human

the spark of pain

the wake up call

the pain that reminds us of what has happened

of what might happen

the fear to avoid all possibility

the pain that scars

but scars can be hidden

with a smile

with a joke

with a lifestyle

but beneathe all that

the pain resides

growing

crying out

until the very limit till the blood gushes out

reopening the scar

the agony

but it is with this pain

it makes us stronger

it makes us human

it makes us

love

cheers to them

jeers to me

isin't it ironic?

to think its over.

2009-06-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

heya people..

not blogged awhile cus..

well usual ans..

LAZY

either playing wow till 2 in the morning n surf the net lazily

or just no blardy mood to blog cus i'm camping

at home everyday n theres nth interesting to blog.

well i went to the IT faire 2day and got my Macbook :D

finallyyyy.....

well...its mainly fer school upcoming n stuff

but yea...aint gonna stop me

from putting wow on it

theres alot of stuff for me to learn now..

since i'm a freaking nerd at mac..

well...theres a start to everything.

all the times i said i dun care

fuck that..

its starting to piss me off again..

shit.

Serim is 34.5k HP unbuffed..

i dun die easily

if i die.

healers suck

Serim with buff at 41k hp does not die to a

23k+4k over kill melee strike

boooo

to find the wind

'Heart'

2009-06-03T03:20:00.003+08:00

Different

we all are

some want to be doctors,lawyers,teachers,bussinessmans.

some want to be musicians,artists,atheletes,actors

all for their own individual idealisation.

Difference, makes us who we are

it makes us unique

it gives us strength and weaknesses

but what bonds us all together despite these differences?

its the 'Heart'

the endless beat that keeps us moving

the beat that makes us strong

the beat that alters as we feel

with joy

love

fear

excitement

the tempo of life

our song

your individual song

i've found my theme

now lets finish this

rekindle

2009-05-30T04:17:00.002+08:00

yoooooo....

not blogged in awhile cus im LAZY!
so yea....wanted to do so b4 getting some sleep..

so yea...

1st day of momentum was 2day at rp..

its was ok...i guess..

aint that HYPED about it..

all the dance items from all different groups were awsome..

my personal fav was rp's ICG , deyi sec and NUS

they were awsomeeeee

the solo drummer from ICG was pro...

i sooooo wanna learn how to play those drums like him.

i shall approach him to be my teacher!!!

one day...

or..ya w/e

didnt manage to see the other groups in the 2nd half cus we had to

be backstage getting ready n stuff..

so yea...

overall..

was a pretty good show.

SPORE is fun!

spore not as in s'pore

but the game spore..

yea..its seems kinda lame..

but its uberrrrrrr coool...

my monster's race is called vitch

cus their carnivours with a bitch ass attitude..

thus their name..

haha

should try it out..

my vitches have evolved into tribal stage baby!

i pwn noobs with no home..

u dig that?!

OH 1 LAST FUCKING THING!

me n tony were on the train heading back home from woodlands

and we were crapping n laughing out loud literally.

then suddenly this fucking fat drunk indian guy started to 'kpkb'

saying shit like..

'you guys are very happy ar?'

'u all keep laughing and everyone dont know y u are laughing'

'are u educated?'

'i will take the flower!'

n some other fucking random shit..

he pissed me off soooooo bad...

shoudlve just ripped of the zingo logo on my shirt n yelled at him.

bloody fuck face..

srsly...

bloody uneducated drunk bastard surfing the mrt pissing ppl off.

shatter in the wind

new divide!

2009-05-19T04:32:00.001+08:00

NEW DIVIDE

2009-05-19T04:00:00.002+08:00

YOOOOO

ok its 4.....i WAS freaking tired and stuff.

but yea..was suppose to sleep at like 2?

but then i remembered linkin park's new song

for transformers 2: revenge of the fallen

is to be released in like a hour more..

so i waited....and waited....

den i stumbled across the linkin park fan thingy

on facebook

that linked to the official radio station thats gonna preview the song

and so i clicked it..

and streamed it..

and who knew...just as it hit 100%

"already u guys! enjoy! linkin park's theme song for transformers 2: revenge of the fallen, NEW DIVIDE"

for once..

i'm like YAY I LOVE U GOD!

w/e i cant explain it..

but like every new song they produce..

my goosebump stands...in a good way.

just go to the official website to share my hype.

www.linkinpark.com

pwnnnnnnnnn

and like each passing wind.

it comes and goes.

my heart is not strong..

not yet..

but unlike the wind..

i'm cant go with the flow..

i cant follow thru..

am i a rebel to everything including myself?

a rebel againts myself.

a rebel to everyone who cared.

to get what i want..

i gotta face myself

i gotta rebel againts my rebel self?

so what is it?

go figure

and your voice was all i heard..

and i get what i deserve

signs and signals.

2009-05-15T01:24:00.003+08:00

heya,,

its 1.30 n i gotta go get some rest for tmr...

or later so to speak..

ZingO will be performing at the Marina Barrage for the

spore arts fest pre-opening show.

its a rather large scale performance for us.

a 180degree semi circle formation of 2 layers..

30min show

pretty cool stuff..

we'll be performing at 7pm from 15th may-17th may.

(friday-sunday)

do come and support us.

woots gogo

ok emo shit comes now wooo..

so many stuffs been occuring to me...

well...either that or i'm thinking too much as usual..

but yea...its like reality has been slapping me across

the face countless times and i'm

'huh? wtf?'

i want a more spontanious life..

but....is that my decision?

GO FIGURE

ok...some people are okakus

some are nerds..

and i'm a wow freak atm..

been reading alot about wow lore.

n tbh..

its somewhat really interesting

if it were a history subject.

a 'A' would only be a heartbeat away.

'Arthas'

'rise of the lich king'

really cool book eh..

not the typical:

charming prince..

with a wonderful and powerful kingdom..

a beautiful and smart girlfriend..

and they lived happily everafter.

noooo...

more like:
charming prince.

wonderful and powerful kingdom..

beautiful and smart girlfriend..

vengence to protect his lands from the enemy..

he took apon a cursed blade to vanquish his enemies..

and with that same blade...

he killed his kingdom.

awsomeee.....

well....

i'm already blabbering alot here..

might as well seal the deal like a otaku n bring out quotes.

"Every light has its shadow-every day has its night-and even the brightest candle can be snuffed out.

And so can the brightest life"

"the harder u strive to slay your enemies, the faster you'll deliver your people into their hands."

u snuffed out my candle.

u snuffed out my life..

2nd thoughts.

2009-05-04T03:02:00.002+08:00

heya.

its 3..

n i'm freaking exhauted

but i had the sudden 'eh..i feel like posting' kinda feeling.

just wanna get some stuff off.

am i underestimating myself?

both physically and mentally?

its always..

'nah...i cant do it'

'it wont happen..'

'no chance...cus its me.'

but then..

even time i try prove myself wrong..

it ends up all fucked up and shit.

like how i push myself to run past my limit

and i vomit at e finish line.

or pushing a few laps in the pool

and end up dizzy and shit.

so i've been wondering.

do i know myself toooo well?

or am i underestimating myself?

this goes same for other stuff in my life.

like 'her'

i did try n stuff..

but it always ended up all awkward n shit.

is that my fault?

for being a boring person?

am i boring?

i don't know

u tell me.

ULDUAR

9/14

WOOOOOOOOOO

we're 3/4 way there!

the more i watch from afar

the more i understand

the more i fear.

the more i fear that its not wad i thought it would be

i need to look past the brighter side.

to see wad hides behind the true shadow.

am i contradicting myslef?

look past the mirror

2009-04-24T03:07:00.003+08:00

yosh.

its 3..

woots.

tired...

but cant sleep as usual.

i think i should move to some other country to meet

my sleeping hours.

i think it'll be soooo much better..

hmm..

nt sure bout wad to blog 2day..

er..

had drums i guess..

practice practice practice..

er..

oh my deferment is granted woots..

i dun gotta worry bout going nafa halfway

and army people with guns n tanks charge in n pull me out.

still been wondering wad would nafa life be..

worst?

or way cooler?

n i wan this next chapter to open dammit!
although i do enjoy wad a holiday i'm having..

lalalala~

get engulfed by the rythem..

epic epic fail.

2009-04-18T02:57:00.002+08:00

heya peeps

its 3am in e morn

n i gotta 'wake up' at 5

gotta head down to RP

having a performance

for those who happen to catch this post early in e morning or

early afternoon

we're performing at scape theme park

fyi

its a outdoor stage thingy opposite cineleisure.

its for the YOG thingy.

so yea

3pm is the opening performance 5mins.

and at 6pm a full show :)

so yea...

just fer ur info.

anyways.

yesterday..

not a very good day eh?

drum practice was cock.

anyways

went prawning with tony n isabelle

3 hours..

$60 dollars total..

10 prawns?

too bloody many ppl there

cant catch shit

we had like our little corner for 3 bloody hours

cant even move around..

anyways...

we started like around 11

n ended at 1

so we were starving

n we wanted to order chicken wings n stuff

went over..

e store close -.-

nvm

start fire to cook our uber 10 prawns.

i accidently put out e fire.

so yea..

lucky e guy in e next pit helped us else

we wouldve starved to death.

after eating our uber 10 prawns..

we were still hungry

so we actually walked to J8 from e prawning place

in e middle of e night...like 3am.

reached J8 n guess wad..

mac wasnt 24 freaking hours -.-

so...we decided to go northpoint mac to eat..

even the taxi is jynxed..

walking e overhead bridge..

aiming for that taxi

n it left halfway thru -.-

nvm..

we got a cab not long after

got to np mac around....3.50?

me n tony...starving..went to buy asap.

after sitting down..

biting into our mcchickens.

i had to say it..

'eh? i thought this hour got breakfast?'

den i looked ahead.

they flipped e fucking menu to breakfast..

what....the....fuck...

so yea..

screw tat bullshit epic fail day.

off tuh bed...

for my 1 hour+ of beauty sleep.

oh oh oh

i wanna raid ULDUAR DAMMIT!

new raid is out n i cant go..

n e guild is progressing w/o me...

SHIT!

after 2days show..

it makes me really wanna finish my drum score :)

i wan ppl to watch

n tap their feet to e rythem..

feel butterflies

get goosebumps

n get high dammit!

i wan it so much like...

police will catch me for drug trafficing that high...

ya ya ya ya ya..

i cant stand it to watch shows that make me

feel that way

when i cant make my own

bah..

pen n pencils

ink and shades.

and the clock hits 12.

2009-04-12T02:27:00.003+08:00

how things go by.

my blog is about a year old

and i'm rather devastated by reading thru my entries over the year.

a few more days.

n my grandmother has passed for a year.

talk about pouring ur emotions into a blog.

how stupid n naive i was.

the more i read thru the year.

the more..

'no? this aint me?'

as each post passed..

the more it changed

and wads gonna happen now?

as the true next chapter starts.

to look back

to look ahead.

and as the clock unwinds

so do you.

just pwn n dun look back.

2009-04-08T07:09:00.004+08:00

heya..

been lazy to post lately..

well its 7am woohooo..

nope i didnt sleep from the night b4...

yonghan ton at my place..

n look whos sleeping with my tv on...tmd..

anyways...

been wow-ing alot lately.

so ah...

wad e heck..

gonna post wow once awhile..

ok..

serivanars has hit 80

n like within 8 hours..

my gears has hit superior rating :)

within like 10 hours?

i have like 11 epics on me..

n i'm already dealing like 2k dps on bosses. woots..

pretty awsome since i just like hit 80.

i forsee even more freaking pwnage coming..

migh be making my priest my main char for pve..

i have new plans for my dk :)

ok..

noobj brought me to arenas 2day.

for ppl who have no idea bout wow.

u have no wow life!

wow aint all about killing dragons n giants.

theres 2 parts to it unlike maple.

'eh look mob! kill!'

wow has...

'eh look player! kill!'

arena is like counterstrike those stuff..

typical pvp..

battlegrounds=pvp but large scale..

10v10 etc

wintergrasp=30+vs30+ lolol

arena is pretty much 2v2 3v3 and 5v5

never stepped into 1 b4

n noobj brought my dk :)

2v2

druid and dk team

and it was freaking awsome!

dammit.

although tank spec.

n shitty pvp gears..

the feeling of..

PWN PWN PWN!

freaking high.

a total new side to wow for me.

gonna train harder

gonna try get myself a team.

n i might be parking my dk into pvp since its so uber

in this field..

man..

how i wish i can explain those fights i had..

NVM

i'll gossip em whenever i see any of u

lolololol..

serim is doing serious pwnage from now on.

ok real life..

i am a official nafa student :)

registered n stuff..

woots.

orientation in like late may if i aint wrong.

lookin forward to a new environment again

new classmates

meeting new people..

n learning new stuff!

and the chicken clucked it's head to the music

letting it out.

2009-04-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

heya..

i'm uber exhausted already..

its 1.30

n i'm going to k.o. after this.

anyways..

heading down to TP tmr..

no..not for another cocked interview.

i'm gonna sign papers to withdraw from chem eng

and from TP for good.

so yea...

its a impt day.

2day 2day 2day..

had drum training..

was uber tired n grumpy..

sry for my emo-ness..

but i guess after the exhausting pt

and finally getting to play drums..

i felt great though..

have not played fer like...2 weeks?

cus i kept falling sick.

but ar..

just hitting it..

felt great..

finally getting back to my drug..

jamming tmr..

looking forward to it..

hope to get the same rush.

realised when emo n brain dead.

i can do much more physical training than usual

without complaining nor feeling e pain..

so this is e glimps of army life style.

brain dead training.

it totally works

and it would all fall down

the godfather.

2009-04-02T06:02:00.002+08:00

heya..

its 6.14am

no..i didnt wake up uber early to blog..

well ya..

didnt sleep..

been spamming movies recently..

got

starwars clone wars..

curious case of benjamin button..

twlight..

body of lies..

marley and me...

7 pounds.

and

the godfather.

pretty awsome shows..

hated marley n me...

cus it made me wheep as i stared at fluffy..

dammit...

shes 7 this year...

cant imagine..

dammit..

no emo no emo..

wad i really liked was the 1972 'The Godfather'

yea...nerd again..

it was some kinda legendary film..

with much awards n recognition..

always heard about it but never watched it.

3 hour long movie.

was kinda draggy though..

but over all...awsome show.

downloading godfather 2 and 3 atm..

hope to get a good show once again.

no spoilers pls...

nafa...

i'm phyced for it...

but i still have 3 more mths b4 school starts~~~~

uber rotting for me..

might go find a job..hmm..

or do sth more productive

apart from making more lvl 80s.

we'll see.

anger and hatred..

some use them for power..

and control..

they feel empowered..

confident..

but these people are those who are most afraid.

they fear looking weak..

the fear being taken advantaged..

the fear losing..

their scared..

i'm scared..

good news bad news..

2009-03-31T02:13:00.002+08:00

sups.

good n bad news.

lets start with...

the sidelines.

2day was e Life! Theatre Awards.

and Zingo got nominated for Best Sound Design.

i didnt manage to go..

will get to that l8r..

anyways.

we didn't win unfortunatly.

BUT

getting nominated is good enough

cheers to that.

n to a brighter future for Zingo.

BAD NEWS

ok..

didnt go for e awards cus i went to my

TP,interactive Media Design transfer interview.

well..as u know i'm dropping chem eng.

n i'm heading into e arts n media sector.

so..i applied fer IMD in TP.

well

i screwed it..

my nerves n my 'auto defense' hit in once again.

n left out of words..

things don't look good.

n its real screwed up.

i should have voiced out more..

instead i got myself overwhelmed..

oh well.

i did try.

GOOD NEWS

i got accepted into nafa~~~

bloody fools.

the results were out but i didnt know..

had to call em up..

the letter is coming soon.

n with this..

i duno if i should be phyced or wad.

wadeva e case.

i've gotten myself out of chem eng.

cheers to that.

n cheers to a july admission~~~

dammit....vhexus found my blog..

VHEX!

IF U'RE READING TAG ME!

I'LL HUNT U DOWN WAHAHAHAHA

ok..

my priest is gonna go pwnage dmg soon.

got a few new gears up.

gotta test em soon!

pwnpwnpwn

one year has passed.

n a new start once again.

a new chapter to this miserable book.

a new chance to make it right.

rock till ur hearts drop.

2009-03-27T04:15:00.005+08:00

heya.

looky looky...

its 4.19 again! wooo

awsome~~~

anyways...

here to kill time b4 i head back into bed n TRY sleep.

went meet up with kailiang adrian n jinhwee..

was nice to see em after like..

1mth?

anyways hc ps us.

prick.

anyways..

we went to play l4d..

rofl.

ok la..

nt bad quite fun

didnt clear last stage cus i had to go training

n jh had prac to attend to..

so yea..

see when i might see em again..

oh ya..

at kailiang's place..

he showed me to a couple of cool stuff on youtube..

about

'punk goes pop'

pretty cool stuff..

hard rockers converting pop songs

giving em e head banging touch.

which i so very much enjoy over e original pop versions.

well gonna post some of em here..

enjoy~

error here somehow.

i duno if its my com?

or wadeva shyt

but i cant drop e vid here...

so i'm just gonna drop the damn link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UeVepOirYE

Alesana - "What Goes Around

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xwXOj55nIY

A Static Lullaby - "Toxic"

these 2 are e coolest imo.

pretty awsome pimping.

sry bout my blogger..

i duno wtf is wrong with it~

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel

a new path?

2009-03-26T00:28:00.005+08:00

heya.

its 12.30! omg..

its early...

anyways...

just here to kill some time b4 i head to bed.

nafa nafa nafa..

hmmm..

a new twist might be coming up in my life..
it aint confirmed yet..
but if it does...
it'll be a cool surprise for some..
i'm keeping at that..
i aint saying nafa rejected me or anything..
but we'll see~

got this done 2day..
well...
yet again call me noob..
but it took me a hour to get it perfect..
n i like it~~

Serivanars has broken the 1.6k dps limit..

serim has broken the 4k dps limit...

EAT THAT!

gratz eva to his damn gun..

ALL thanks to me..

tsk.

the artist's model.

who am i?

2009-03-25T04:14:00.002+08:00

heya..

well guess e time...

its 4.15am atm again..

from a 12am lights out...

to a 2am...

to a 3...

n now its crossing 4..

pretty soon it'll be 6 or 7..

n soon no sleep at all...

something is stirring me up.

wads going on..

well...went prawning with tony n rh..

call me noob but it was my 1st time.

n it was great.

1st time for a form of fishing as well...

pretty cool..

sth different for once.

caught 10 prawns in 3 hours..

i don't know if its good or bad?

but i'm proud of em 10.

esp the biggest 1 i caught wahaha.

was a heartbreaker to skewer e prawns alive -.-

though its just prawns...

i still dun feel good about it..

even though they were excellent to eat.

uber tender.

but still..

i don't like it =/

some people are doctors.

some are lawyers.

some are teachers..

artists.

cleaners.

chefs.

writers..

actors..

performers..

scientists..

parents..

so then...

who am i?

and the fat lady sang.

slap of reality.

2009-03-24T00:55:00.004+08:00

heya.

well..its 1...

i'm really tired...

but dun feel like heading to bed..

its like being stuck to e chair n stare at the com

againts my will..

n apprarently..

i have very low will power.

so wad e heck..

i need to get more stuff off my mind b4 i can sleep.

serivanars pwned e dps charts yet again...

yes..

n finally...Spriest uber aoe dps skill..

mind sear is learnt..

yet to test the new skill n rotation.

but i'm sure i'll still be pwning..

ok enuff of this.

keep going..

go for it..

keep trying..

won't hurt..

well i did..

n i've done so much that..

i'm using it as a shield to protect myself from failing again.

i keep thinking that its possible.

its like watching those cocked anime shows

where e hero keeps 'believing'

and everything just magically happens

this aint anime.

this aint a game.

this is real...

the pain is real..

the emotions are real..

but..

there wern't to be.

it was all a illusion..

that i crafted out of myself..

to hide in my shell again..

a auto defense machanism in my brain.

nothing was ever real in e 1st place.

n its my fault to put myself thru this shit.

logically..

its harder to hold on to something.

but in reality..

its harder to let go.

esp againts ur will..

this time.

i'm sure...

very sure...

this is it.

i need a new source to express this.

Blow the candles out..

looks like a solo tonight..

i'm begining to see the light...

the average guy.

2009-03-23T05:01:00.002+08:00

heya peeps.

well i cant sleep

n its.....5.01 am atm.

well...

i was sick on sat..

n have been sleeping alot..

n now i cant sleep...

zzz

anyways lets just get this going.

woke at 3...woopee..

headed down to marina bay and then marina barrage.

pretty awesome place.

nice view..

the weather was pleasent..

yea took alot of pics..

might put em up on FB soon.

too lazy to do so now.

well..

met tony,sx,djw and tw there.

inspected the place..

well yea.

aint gonna elaborate more into that.

pretty cool place..

nice place to bring a girlfriend to haha.

NEXT!

serivanars pwned a better geared spriest at e same lvl (74)

and a lvl 75 shammy with a 1.5k dps rating.

EAT THAT!

ok enuff.

well..

i was looking thru my old report cards of cchy.

pretty heart warming comments n etc.

n i've seen...

i've never improved...

since primary sch.

i was n still the average boy.

the average guy..

i've never scored at anything.

everything i see majority anyways were

3s and 4s

and on a trend for a period of time

5s.

n my O lvls..

everything 3.

wad were the odds?

PSLE.

all Bs as well..

i'm like the official

B-BOY

aint sth i'm very proud of myself.

anyways.

just wanna share some comments from my r.card.

lets start from sth tat will boost my ego a lil' :P

will be cut shorting a few..

might be too long :P

"He has many friends in the school due to his caring

and friendly nature. He is also artistically inclined. it is a joy to have

a student like him"-Mr Surjono

LOL

i miss mr surjono :(

i think more ppl are pissed at me then the friends i have lol.

well w/e.

"However, he needs to work on his tempermental streak"

-Mdm Goh

bah..

i admit it.

sorry mdm goh for all that shit.

i feel i've solved that by alot.

but not entirely.

do tell me if i'm wrong.

if i scold u back means the ans to that is NO! lol.

lets get sth corny n typical.

"Zm has a potential to obtain better results, He should strive harder next semester."

there u go.

a comment EVERYONE has to have in their report card.

or sth similar.

oh ya

-Ms lee eu nee

well..

she only taught me for 1 sem b4 she left to give birth.

oh well..

memories memories..

so much for being a average student in poly

by getting all Fs.

well...

i guess i evened out with 1 A? lol.

i don't know where this life is leading me.

i'm just a ordinary guy.

with ordinary outputs.

with ordinary intelligence.

with ordinary talents.

not the lousiest.

not the best.

the stand still.

if i were a mountain.

it would be a plateau

a short 1 like most ppl would say.

so..

to ppl around me.

don't expect too much of me.

u'll get ordinary results.
"He is a strong believer of his own capabilities."

fucking bullshit.

blow the candles out.

looks like a solo tonight.

something different.

2009-03-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

heya ppl...

yet again..
lectures from my mom...
n she always brings up this point...

that makes sense...

but i'm thinking of it a different angle..

"if u really want it..go for it. nothing will stop u.

if u really want it"

well..
she means studies n my design course..

n i'm thnking of her..

bah...

i guess shes right..

no matter hw many times i fall..

i tend to just...stay down..

sometimes...i get up cus there is some motivation..

but..

this time...

damn...

i'm seriously pushing myself to e limit..

well..
my last post said i'mma givin up..

screw that..

i aint falling down so soon..

ohohoh..

Zingo got nominated in the

Straits Time Life Theatre Awards

for Best Sound Design...

wooo

pretty cool stuff..

its like a huge rep boost..

n bigger motivation boost.

next stop..
WINNER!

well..
pretty bored these days...

i dun wanna post much bout wow either.

although i did pwned e dps charts with my spriest again...

n uber tanking with my dk wahaha..

ok enuff..

i guess i'mma post sth new..

gonna put some of my drawings up..

i know they aint e best stuff u've seen.

but i do wish to hear some comments..

do pls tag ur comments..

wadeva they are.

n since its e 1st pic..

i'mma use my most impt drawing..

with 100% emotion in it..:P

although its black n white..

(i aint a colour person....yet)

love?

as one

well yea..

the 1st picture is e original.

den i played around n made copies n placed them tgt.

this picture was drawn on the day i met her..

was drawn while i met her.

n progressed as it did while with her.

n i belive is 1 of my finest piece.

will be posting more non-emo pieces soon haha

u are so....killing me.

final decision?

2009-03-15T22:23:00.002+08:00

heya.~

IT fair~~~

freaking crowded eh?

like e 1st time its so packed.

bad economy n more ppl buying more electronics.

so many ppl carrying tvs n laptops out.

freaking bull crap.

had to like really bulldoze my way thru...

bloody hell..

got myself a radeon graphic card..

yet to install it cus my com has alot of freaking weird wires

e bloody HP guy left for me binded all tgt..

have nooo idea wads for wad...

dare nt remove any either..

gonna get e bloody guy back here..

n make him fix my bloody internet security thing..

so freaked out i cant even use msn..

yet again..

no reply.

i duno if i should get emo..

pissed.

persist..

endure..

or wadeva shit.

i hate 1 way convos..

n this has been going on too many times.

i guess its my own fault to get too deep into it.

n i'll crawl out of this grave i dug for myself.

i'll give it till tmr..

if there still aint anything..

then so be it.

it aint to be.

n it wont.

n can only take so much.

1 more day

and i thought i was tired.

2009-03-15T01:31:00.003+08:00

heyo peeps...

uber tiring day....

overslept for drum dammit..

sorry for making everyone pump 50..

muscle aching all over..

rather torturing doing pushups..

it felt like my muscles were going to tear apart anytime..

but oh well..

gotta force it.

esp that 50 -.-

gotta let my body relax for a few days..

yest n 2days dmg pretty hefty.

might be chilling at e pools in safra on mon.

will see hows e situation on that day..

need some sun rays as well..

i'm freaking white dammit..

LIGHT!! give me strength!

drama drama drama drama..

fun fun..

me is enjoy closing my eyes n relax n stretch..

hmmm...

thats like yoga.

lololol.

who knows...i might actually take it up..

rofl.

but...

nahxxxxxxxx....

looking forward to cooler stuff to learn.

ohohoh...

grade 8 was sweet.

a lil' stiff at e start..

but overall i think we did great..

i felt e aura i wanted..

saw a vid of myself playing...

my face always seems like gt fishball in my mouth =/

wtf sia..

gotta correct that...

n i need a hair cut...

its tooooo whacky...

videos ftw..

its another angle of a audiance view.

I WANNA MAKE MORE CRAPPED UP VIDEOS!!!

might look out for some vid cams tmr at e IT fair..

hope to find some good deals....

who knows..

i might actually get 1.

i...

want...

my..

trishaw....

nth else need to be said.

tired!

2009-03-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

yosh.

lets start this off with this..

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

ok..

i copied this thingy ruohan's blog..

cus i'm bored..

e results are mine of cus -.-

hmm..

dissapointment..

thats surprisingly true i guess=/

i hate to fail.

n if i do..

my life gets screwed up.

bah..

w/e!!!

well..

went to gym as intended to.

was ABIT reluctant...

but i did it!

met e kkb yonghan n ate long john..

half an hour late as usual.

bloody noob.

oh shyt..

l8r someone scold me ;x

hohoho..

shawn last min never go

bloody pussy scared of a little rain

LOL!!

anyways..

got there at 1504..i rmb!

got there..

started with weights...

blah blah blah..

do till my arms all went flimsy..

its been awhile since i got a good work out..

rather satisfied.. :)

but yh noob..

so fast tired..

1554 we zao alr..

newb.

i can feel my arms~~~

tmr is prac 8!~~
PWN!

i hope ;x

my spriest pwned a lvl 73 full epic spriest.

eat that noob.

ok enuff wow.

i'll wait for u..

somehow...

i'm still freaking waiting.

attitude check.

2009-03-13T03:39:00.002+08:00

ok..

its like 3am again.

n i wanted to sleep at 12..

ended up surfing e net till now.

uber tired.

but isomnia is kicking in again.

that only means depression is kicking agian.

cant sleep nowadays no matter how tired i am..

i just need a nice long nap.

ok thats it..

2day is e last straw.

i know i fucked up again..

i'm pulling myself away from e com..

its getting out of hand...

heading to e gym tmr..

with mr koh yh..

might grab a swim after that.

n hopefully pull some people out for coffee..

i need to get my life balanced again..

fucking world of warcraft screwing my social life.

i want to go out more..

fool around..

watch movies..

go stupid...

mess around with ppl..

disturb strangers in city hall...

scream a friends name in a mrt..

wadeva.

better still...push a friend into a wall..

damn..

i gotta get those back.

else i'm rotting at home.

malaysia trip pls..

no world of warcraft talk.

looky wad happen

my chem eng results

thermodynamics F

Applied math F

PIPC2 F

OC2 F

CSAS D+

Understanding Theatre A

lolololololol

i got a A ppl..

other ppl dig their brains out n dun even get a A

heck it man.

i'm proud of my A.

nothing else.

i miss theatre classes in poly.

for 2 obvious reasons duhx..

i wannna act~~~

oh..

Hey Monday.

the cool upcoming band.

awsome man..

e lead singer..

Cassadee pope..

woooo!

hot as hell..

well..

she does look like someone if u catch my drift..

her voice as well..

whenever i hear their songs..

i think of...her..:)

i duno its a good or bad thing.

but w/e

atleast i have sth that i feel

reminds me of her

n keeps me going on.

or maybe i'm just going crazy.

heh.

i'm falling..

falling apart..

for u..

coffee break.

2009-03-10T03:19:00.003+08:00

millions of stuff fucking my head up..

i cant even play wow n have fun..

i wont say emo..

its just

flashes of thoughts that haunt me from

e night b4.

dreams.

nightmares.

songs.

images.

keep flashing like some cocked up horror movie.

and its all black n white kinda shitty stuff..

last night..

i had dreams.

nightmares? of flashes of e past

and/or future?

or is it a good thing?

but i refuse to acknowledge it.

but as often as my stm is.

i usually forget my dreams..

but e damn thing haunted it me 3 times last night

all in different scenarios.

n do not wish to elaborate about wad it was.

but i feel its not right.

n i dun wish for it to happen.

its a vow i made to myself not to happen.

for both parties sake..

i will find a new light.

n keep the flame of life burning.

that is n will be

my new year resolution.

n i have yet to break it.

nor will i..

light give me strength!

nth to talk about wow.

gelare tmr

with tony n hopefully rh or marc..~~

i need more outings to get my

'wild animal' free.

roar...

its scary how i feel i'm so close to u.

yet so far away.

yet someone else.

yet u.......

craziness..

kicking in..

what now?

nafa?

2009-03-08T00:37:00.003+08:00

heya peeps.

2day was my nafa admission test

paper1:draw by observation

paper2:creativity thingy.

well..

paper 1 is more about drawing skills.

our test was suppose to draw 1 object in our possetion

but in 3 different angles

so its about shading n stuff.

well..

1hour was pretty tight

but i managed to get it done.

drawing aint my best skill atm.

gotta get it up.

paper2 was doing a collage with magz

pretty cool

i took e topic of new technology

cus e magz i brought were all about PS3 LOL

had a fun time doing it

rather pleased of wad i created.

Dearth vader shall have world domination

with his ps3

wahahahahahaha!!!

i'd give myself a....6-7/10 for paper 1..

and hopefully a 8-9 for paper 2 :P

well i'm placing everything on e line for this.

WISH ME LUCK!

well...

nth to do in wow cept waiting for ulduar to come out.

dks are getting fucking nerfed.

bloody hell..

it totally sucks to hear ur own class get nerfed like mad.

oh well..

too many ppl complaining bout

serim pwning them everyday.

cant be helped i guess.

i'll still pwn em after e nerf..

its just some might get away faster :P

me is wan train my pally Nocake.

n serivanars!!

ok nuff of wow..

i'm trying to get it out of my system.

DRAMA CLASS!~

its fun

n relaxing.

but this class is more serious imo

but i dun mind haha

although poly drama class was more relaxing.

and more about acting :P

well.

w/e i still enjoy it

n i wanna learn more~~

travis is e next SG brad pitt~~ LOL!

"is she that special to you?"

quote from wsa awhile ago.

wsa=wong su ann

well..

that qn popped into my tiny skull recently

due to my sudden emo-ness

i guess.

all the mistakes i did.

all e regrets that i have

all the stuff that i didnt do.

is coming back at me.

whenever i go crazy

i go lame

i go retarded..

i think..

y e fcuk didnt i do this when i was with her.

she didnt get to see my kuku self.

e self which i think might have some

connection to her.

cus shes that kind to.

who says opposites attract.

i'm gonna be more retarded?

my specs seems to be boosting my dumbness..rofl

but is that a good thing?

fyi i aint dumb..

i'm just partially retarded.

craziness n having fun makes me think of u..

u are that special.

totally.

no not unholy aura..not frost not blood....its a whole different aura i want.

2009-03-02T03:28:00.004+08:00

heya peeps.

its been awhile since i posted.

well ya exams are over

sry for my laggness.

friday was e last day for me with a8d2.

n i aint exactly happy bout it.

but i cannot move on in chem eng.

n thus my decision.

i promise i'll be crashing alot of lectures :P

wish me luck on my appeal to nafa.

outing pics on facebook

go look fer em urselves.

well ya..

still playing lots of wow.

getting my priests up

i'm a herbilist and inscriptor!

hola for a glyph.

to think that u can get out of the real world

by playing a mmorpg

when its just as real as e world itself.

politics etc.

well its crappy

n its affecting alot of innocent ppl.

w/e

gotta fix this up.

[nobodies]

this guild

will rise 1 day.

sooner or later.

well..

i don't ask for much in drumming.

yes.

i go to drums to have fun.

fun with frens

n fun with frens WITH drums.

its e bond between everyone that feel awsome.

its the aura.

no not unholy aura..not frost not blood....its a whole different aura i want.

i want ppl to feel e same spur of energy

when watching a show.

when e music,performer and audience become 1.

in order to achieve that

the performers must get that bond right 1st.

its been awhile since i've felt that spur.

that hype.

e last time was Moon Fest.

cus most of us played our hearts out

cus we have placed too much shit into it

to let it fail.

drumming had been my drug.

WoW is my indoor drug.

and outdoors is drumming.

i cant do anything better cept these 2.

apart from talking cock.

and being retarded.

i want that enegry.

and i will get it.

flipside.

p.s.

if u're a really vain person.

u'll realise when u play drums u tend to get ur actions right.

yes..

i'm vain.

u should be too.

for e sake of drumming LOL

where do i go from here?

sick...

2009-02-24T00:23:00.008+08:00

heyo..

i'm bored so just came in to slack abit..

got a bad flu..

1st time i had like a 7x multiple sneeze..

bah..

was heading home from school looking

like rudolf the red nose reindeer.

dammit....

SLEEP TIME!

pretty cool eh :D

Twilight Vanquisher Serim..

i ain't no bullshitting.

thats e real shit right there.

check me up in e wow armory!

a lil' screw up for my dk..

my HP is like 29k

and my armor should be around 30k

they didn't add frost presence into it.

oh well.

YES THATS TANK SPEC

u aint see no shit yet.

wait till i'm in my dps gears.

:PPPPP

push on...

push on......

Twilight Vanquisher Serim

2009-02-22T23:19:00.005+08:00

heyo peeps.

ok a little brief..

went hospital visit grandfather..

suann came...

crapped with her..

left for home..

ok back to wow :)

Twilight Vanquisher Serim.

yep yep

from us getting owned in OS10 2 drakes up..

we went for the OS25 3drakes up!

after like 4 attempts we got it done..

yes..i got e same crappy job of pulling all adds..

but since its a 25man.

i have a partner :)

its a 1st for me to see 4 tanks of all different classes.

Druid MT

Warrior drake tank

Pally and DK add tank.

pretty cool :)

anyways OS25 3 drakes up is e biggest achviement

for wotlk at e moment.

UNTIL e up coming ulduar is apporaching.

finished 10 man Eye of eternity as well.

n i got myself yet another title

Serim,Champion of the Frozen Waste.

Twilight Vanquisher is cooler..

i'm sticking to that

cus u dun see everyone walking around with that :P

tmr is PIPC2 paper..

hohohoho

GGfied.

i'm mentally prepared for it alr.

gonna bring my pencils n start sketching!

oh oh oh..my previous post.

i cant get e feeling that i kindaposted e way i posted wrongly.

"heya ppl..
to star of my post
I DID NO SKIP DRUM.
i had a reason.. n i aint bullshitting"

it just came out that way.

n i dun wanna edit e post :P

not that i'm blaming u or anything.

SORRY MARC IF U HAD E WRONG IDEA!

SORRRRRRYYYYYYYY

its always best to get to talk to suann..

girls always know wad to say..

for this situation anyway..

so what now?

cont. waiting?

i want to be a graphic designer.

2009-02-22T03:58:00.003+08:00

heya ppl..

to start of my post

I DID NOT SKIP DRUM.

i had a reason..

n i aint bullshitting.

met up with melvin 2day.

my couz.

whom i looked up to since young.

he was e cool dude among all e couz in my mom's side.

gave me loads of his figurines..

and now a successful interactive media designer.

he has a dream job.

he is doing something he loves as a living.

thats anyones dream job.

anyways.

he was a ex nafa student.

n i met up with him to get some insights.

n personal suggestions from him..

i wasn't really close to him..

i wasn't close to any of my couz on my mom's side.

but yea..

he's really cool n friendly :)

he explain his life in nafa n those stuff.

n e test he took to get in.

he says nafa only looks for 2 things in e exam.

if u can draw..u're in

if u're creative..u're in.

e admission is 31th march.

n i'll be going for it..

gonna be sketching n drawing more often nw..

gonna try get more designs out of my head..

gotta find ALL my past drawings n designs i've drawn.

and i'm gonna pwn the admission test!

pwn pwn!

like i pwn allies and raid bosses.

ok back to wow :P

EF 10man os run 2 drakes up

FAIL.

due to multiple failures.

we did a 1 drake up instead.

its was freaking tough.

for me actually.

heres e raid layout

3 tanks

2 death knights(MT,add tank)

1 warrior(drake tank)

2 healers

1 paladin(MT healer)

1 druid(raid healer)

5 dps

1 paladin

1 hunter

1 rogue

1 warlock

1 warrior

a pretty well formed raid.

BUT i hated my role

Death Knight Add Tank

bloody bull shit.

toughest job of em all.

pull all fire elementals

pull all drake whelps

pull all ele from fire walls..

avoid all fire walls.

avoid all void zones.

tmd.

nvm.

serim did a good job n pwned everything,

stupid MT keep die.

noob shit.

fading away

but all it takes

is to see ur face again.

selfish? selfless?

2009-02-21T02:04:00.004+08:00

hey peeps.

OC2 paper..

chui..

out of 100

i give myself at most 20 marks.

dun wanna talk bout it.

booo.

well ya..duhx i played wow.

i need a girlfriend to get my mind of it :)

unless she plays wow too..

thats a whole diff story.

that would be HOT!

LOL.

Serim cleared Naxx10 at 9.30pm

with 3 drops

and 2nd in dps ranking :)

i left a guild..

with friends..

really good friends..

so that i can raid more..

wth.

yea thats fcuked up.

i feel that way till now.

but.

lets talk bout e bigger picture.

not in-game.

just so that i can achieve something better..

something greater

i leave behind those who helped me get to where i am.

if i did this in-game.

that makes it no different from who i am does it?

so what i'm thinking now is...

i dun want this shit to happen.

n i dun wan ppl leaving me..

or this group.

for wadeva reasons.

like how xoras left due to conflicts.

that sucks..

that fucking sucks.

i so hate it if that happens.

take a chill pill..

hit a drum..

punch some random guy in e face..

punch e wall till ur fist swells.

or even bleed.

scream ur heart out.

or drown urself in a mmorpg

n forget bout all e troubles around u.

now i know y i'm addicted to world of warcraft.

alot of screwed stuff happening to me...

i soooo very much prefer that world than in real life.

bahx..

if only i had spells and the ability to summons ghouls

and OBLITERATE BOOM!

11k dmg u're dead.

ok anyways..

i dun wanna leave..

i dun wan anyone to leave..

its a naive wish.

but i'm sticking to it.

i'm loosing my grip.

cus its a 1 way conversation.

still childish and cant get his life straight,

2009-02-19T02:06:00.005+08:00

heyo.

serim has joined

'Epic Fail'

a raiding guild.

was a headache to leave elysium.

but ya..

it happened anyway.

BUT
on my 1st day on the guild.
look wad i got.

yes

i got it..
Armageddon.

(i have no idea y whenever i add a pic..

there will always be a spacing for everything afterwards)

friday is the exams.

tmr is e continuation of naxx25.

tmr might have a eoe run.

tmr i said i wanna study oc.

fuck.......

travis cant get his life right.

yes thats serivaras with e big ass swords.

i'm still waiting~

Pestilence

2009-02-18T00:22:00.003+08:00

Pestilence

a disease that spreads really quickly

and kills alot of ppl.

a death knight skill.

LOL

bah

my brain cells are victims to pestilence..

their all dying!~

hmmm my DAE appeal to TP has failed.

i just wanna drop e idea of both polys

and try my hardest for nafa.

i think its better to improve my skills there.

since its a focused sector

unlike poly that sometimes throws funny

crap at ya.

NAFA!!
i only hope i can get it.

its my last shot to a new life.

oh..

i forgot to blog about sunday which was a really interesting day

went to meet some members of 'the elysium'

yes my guildies in world of warcraft.

met

penitent

mandrill

zyniths

dural

sowhat

dantalion

n evalast(yin le)

1st time i went to meet a online friend.

rofl.

it was really cool

its as though i've knew them for a really long time.

well..in game ya

about half a year i've been playing with them.

but like to meet em in RL.

was pretty cool.

was excited to see how n who looked like what.

pen and dural uncle luh :P

cant tell they would actually be playing wow

n sowhat..

rofl.

auntie :P

wife of dural.

anyways ya..

i bet u guys dun care. hahaha

watched pink panther 2 after that.

with mandril,dant,n zyn

really funny show.

was abit boring at e start

crappy bullshit show.

haha

exams are coming.

i'm screwed.

i keep telling myself i'm gonna study.

atleast 1 chapter for each subject.

look wad i'm doing.

bah..

failure in life..

zzz

serivaras is power lvling n is currently lvl 73.

i'll wait...

i know what must be done.

and what i must hold back.

happy valentines day.

2009-02-14T23:58:00.003+08:00

happy valentines day :)

well..

spent my v.day in training..

for some reason..

was uber shagged 2day.

i guess cus i didn't get much sleep e night b4.

had alot of....

thoughts going thru my mind..

cant explain hw tired i am now..

bah..

well..

typical training i guess?

nth much to say bout it cept i tried to get as much

shut eye i could.

n blah blah

political stuff which i dun wanna share on my blog.

might tick me off even more.

headed to e movies after drum

valkyrie we went.

missed e 1st 10mins cus we were stuffing food

down our throats.

went in to find ppl in e wrong seats..

row G is e uber coolest.

everyone in that row was late.

us..den another couple...followed by another.

well..

valkyrie..

rather boring.

it aint a action movie as it seems.

rather politcal n interesting show..

i slept thru e 1st 15mins due to fatigue n boredom haha

e 2nd half of e show started to get interesting

n so ya.

hitler din die to a bomb..

blah blah blah...

he blew his own brains out.

headed home.

n i am gonna knock out anytime soon.

i guess i ain't that guy.

i can tell..

i ain't tat special someone.

as usual i got my hopes high..

its not tat i blame u..

i tend to jump into conclusions too damn fast.

but as i did wait for 3 years b4..

who knows..

i might do it again.

Serim the Love Fool.

2009-02-14T00:44:00.005+08:00

heya.

well..no school 2day..

yay.

woke up ard...11?

den marc dropped me a msg he ended sch early

n headed to my place to slack

he witness e carnage and destruction

serim unleashed in wintergrasp 2day.

wakakaka.

well..after e fight.

headed to cchy.

he went to ncc.

i went to scouts.

its nice to see e scouts again after a year or so.

alot has changed.

but i dun think much for e better.

alot of work needed..

i mean ALOT of work needs to be done with them

i ain't sure if i can commit back to them again.

but as a senior..

its like...u know?

there will always be a scout within me..

once a scout always a scout.

bah..

i gotta think this over..

anyways..

they had cooking 2day.

nice to see e juniors actually TRYING to cook this time.

den just sit back watch e seniors cook

n eat wads left afterwards.

but bloody hell..

burnt my hand with a match stick.

chao ta la..

nw theres a huge blister in my right index finger.

wont be playing drums anytime soon.

didnt go jamming 2day.

heh.

yes finally a 25man raid naxx..

got 3 epics out of 6 bosses.

uber satisfied.

held top 5 dps n top overall dmg.

power of serim!
completed the valentines day event as well..

Serim the Love Fool.

i guess same goes to

Travis the Love Fool.

heh.

i guess...

i guess its screwed up that i always use my msn pm.

or nick.

or my blog to always try to get e msg across..

it actually sucks to beat around e bush.

cus u aint sure whos e person e msg is refering to

so heck it.

i'm gonna do sth abit more obvious here.

'i like to think i'm yours but i'm not'

is that to me?

do tell me pls.

i dun wanna live in self denial.

like how i have all my life.

cus this phase

'i like to think i'm yours but i'm not'

goes back to u from my side.

it sure does.

screw emo-ness

2009-02-13T03:07:00.004+08:00

heya...

'me laughing is the cover up of the sadness within my heart'

argh screw this emo bullshit.

ya..it feels that way..

but its a cry for attention...

shitheads.

sry for my crude language..

but this is e most relaxing way to express myself :)

well..

ya..i'm sick...

caught e flu...

cant sleep recently..

i wonder why...

stayed home..

and duhx..

wow-ed

whole day.

exams are coming..

i duno wad to do..

no not study.

i've given up on that for chem eng.

i'm rather looking forward to nafa..

i wanna get in..

been drawing lately..

hoping to build up my portfolio.

lets do this shit!

considering to buy the psp3000.

cus my psp is kinda...screwed up?

e system is all crapped up..

auto shut downs n restarts etc..

still considering though...

we'll see..

i'm still waiting...

i dun care wad other ppl say.

lets see how much steam is in me.

wake up.

2009-02-11T23:47:00.004+08:00

the rejection n depression got e best of me last night.

this must not affect my life.

i gotta keep moving.

'u gotta be a fighter and fight for wad u want'

'go for it la'

'u gotta step out of ur box!'

'she won't open up to u if u don't open up to her'

'use ur charm like how u always make me laugh.'

'be yourself.'

'its whether u want to or not...'

'u gotta change ur attitude towards life'

'if u fail,get back up and go again dun just lay there.'

words from impt ppl around me.

guiding me.

helping me.

and its down right clear wads my weakness.

1. when i fall. i dare not climb back up

2. i'm antisocial and need to open up abit more.

these are e factors that are killing me right now.

yes.

i rushed too fast

and expected too much.

i was asking for it to approached her this way.

i was too concerend bout valentines day

and e last week of sch.

i thought.

this was now or never.

if i get rejected..

i dun gotta face her anymore.

but i got rejected.

but e thing is..

i dun wanna let go just cus i got rejected for v.day.

i wanted to put it under e bridge..

if i get rejected.

den forget it..

but i cant.

i just cant..

i aint stopping here..

i'm gonna fight for wad i want.

unless she has a boyfriend already,

i won't go on.

i ain't those fuckers who snatches.

but until i get that information confirmed..

i'm going on.

but a break for now..

exams are coming.

i dun wanna interfier with her.

this is so not a crush.

i know wad i did wrong.

i'm gonna get that fixed.

u're gonna see travis the crazy bastard..

not travis the dao guy in the corner..

u'll see :)

just a failure.

2009-02-10T23:48:00.004+08:00

why?

wtf is it like this..

1000 of stuff running in my mind nw..

i dun get it..

did i rush to fast?

did i fuck something up?

did i give e wrong 1st impression?

is it that u're e classmate of my ex?

is it that i ain't ur type?

is it that i seem like a player?

is it that i'm corny?

cus i'm ugly?

cus i'm different?

cus of past experiance?

cus of bad memories?

cus u don't know me enough?

cus u know me only for a short period of time?

cus u have a boyfriend?

cus u have someone else in mind?

cus u already have a date?

cus u dun wanna have a date?

cus u rather be with ur friends den with me?

cus i aint significant?

cus u felt e chemistry i created was an act?

cus u felt tat i wasnt serious?

cus its fear?

cus u're shy?

cus u dun like guys?

cus u dun like anything bout me?

what is it? tell me?

ya..

i always sound cool n calm.

i always seem to be thinking..

i always seem to have alot of stuff in my mind.

seem this seem that..

wad u dun see is a fucked up guy inside of me

crying for attention.

i shiver when i'm near u..

i go blank when i see u..

i almost got a heart attack when i asked u out.

i felt e skin of my chest pounding..

real hard.

real fast.

i felt my hands go numb..my joints. my legs.

and for the record.

its e 1st time i'm asking someone out face to face.

none before.

i took advices from so many friends.

i took their words of encouragement.

i took their support

i took it..

and embraced it.

i didn't regret any of it.

i just feel so screwed now..

my leap of faith landed with my dead body heart pierced thru a pinnicle

of a frozen glacia.

i don't know wad to do now.

u were the 1 who was pushing me to move forward in life.

and now.

i'm back in a stand still.

i told myself.

my drum score i was composing.

i had u in my heart each time i played the drum.

each time i recorded something.

each time i hummed sth..

i told myself.

i wanted u to be there when its done.

its 1st show.

now i'm fucking stuck.

stuck on everything.

sure ppl might say to move on.

find someone else.

focus on wads more impt.

well u can drag my fucking my dead body for all i care.

travis is dead dude..

hes fucking dead.

i don't know anything anymore

this post might be deleted soon

i just need to get this off my of wads left of my fucked up heart

screw this.

its over...seriously

2009-02-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

its done..

i did it..

i thought i couldn't.

but i did it.

but life ain't exactly fair..

so cheers to that.

nth else to be said.

goodnight.

down,depressed,demoralized.

2009-02-10T01:24:00.003+08:00

hey people.

dosen't it suck..

if u send a msg..

n u anticipate the reply..

but nothing comes in even after 3 hours..

n u ask..

why didn't u reply me?

and a

'oh i forgot..'

comes back in..

that hurts...

like big time..

i have no idea how to carry this forward.

its just coffee...

is that too much to ask for?

well tmr is tuesday..

my understanding theatre play is tmr..

haven't remembered all my lines..

so screwed..

oh..

he had to change e story line again..

getting on my nerves.

hes more alike his character then in real life.

ignorant.

spoilt.

n he wants wad he wants.

dammit..

unflexible shit.

can't think out of a bloody cardboard gift box.

yay to new gears..

t7.5 shoulders :)

n yay to my killing spree in pvp..

they don't stand a chance againts serim.

e power death knight!

i wanna complete my score..(**%)

i wanna complete a new costume design..(50%)

i wanna make a tshirt design..(25%)

com'on..

creative juices get to work!

i wanna get into a design school

so that i can cultivate my passion!

booo...

tmr is the day.

its everything or nothing tmr.

i'm putting everything on the line.

wish me luck.

emo? emotional? its all e same.

2009-02-09T01:39:00.002+08:00

weai.~

i was told nt to post about 'them' so i'm gonna keep it low.

but i just wanna say.

(despite being slow)

its cool to see my own competition.

at its best.

atleast i think its their best..

but i'm sure they have something else hidden up their sleeves.

its because i was sitting next to e speakers?

cus i felt it hard to breath with the energy level going up during certain parts.

which was a good thing.

i enjoyed it.

sure arts about the visuals,the execution all those stuff.

but for me as a individual.

what i look for in a good show.

is something that can give me goosebumps in a good way.

these goosebumps will lead to e butterflies in e tummy.

n even being pressed down.

thats how i find or feel if its a good show.

ME.

i'm sure nt all of u agree..

bah..

i dun give a shit :P

anyways..

good show.

but we'll do better!

i know we can.

Serim has registered to raiding guild:

'Epic Fail'

pwn pwn!

this night..

i wasn't breathing well not just cus of a good show..

u're taking over everything..

u said to me...

'u look so serious in class..as if u have alot of stuff in ur mind.'

well i do..

its u...

really nice to have to be able to chat with u..

made my day seriously..

i don't want it to be the last.

u're totally something else.

a photo is worth more than a thounsand words

2009-02-08T00:18:00.002+08:00

down in e dumps...

all the way down to the core of all e crap that lies in it.

was getting really phyced up for e day to come..

and suddenly...

just cus of a photo..

its scaring the shit out of me.

If you're feeling down in the dumps, be active with people and you'll feel better.

quoted from e horoscope of the day for librians.

well..

thanks tony n marc :)

too emo to carry on.....

i feel too shitty....

will cont this post tmr...

Adrenalin

2009-02-07T02:11:00.002+08:00

well...

abit pissed of wow now..

there aint no gear progression..

gonna jump ship to the guild

'death cold embrace'

the elysium aint getting me anywhere.

screw this..

might be going to train on my pvp skills instead.

ok well...

missed a 25man naxx raid for drum jamming sessions.

i was having 2nd thoughts.

but thank god i went.

had a dream last night of a rythem.

forced myself up n recorded it down

with my brainless n tired voice.

used it 2day..

n came out great..

thanks tony n marc for helping me tune it up.

lkk n xjw too.

i'm getting drum progression more then gear

progression

ssheesh.

feel da adrenalin!

i miss her.

i wanna talk to her..

its a 2 way trip.

2009-02-06T01:58:00.002+08:00

heyo....

well....yes..i still hate sch...

can't wait to get the chance to get out of it.

i pray that i get my appeals....

or worst come to worst...

i intend to head into nafa..

wish me luck.

oh...

watched '4 brothers'

pirated dvd format..

it was a last year movie..

pardon my outdated-ness

wanted to catch e movie last year...just didn't have e chance to..

really cool movie actually..

liked it alot.

if u're like me.

who have not got to catch e movie last year or

thru internet downloads..

holla to get e dvd from me haha...

cool show.

I WAN RAIDS RAIDS RAIDS!!
I WAN NEW GUILD!!
DAMMIT..

I WAN GEAR MY BLOODY DEATH KNIGHT!

serim will pwn u all..

3.8k dps on 5man instance...

eat that!

'if u don't open up to her, she won't open up to u'

'just ask! won't die 1'

'reject den only she n u noe...den we noe....nt say we broadcast it'

'ASK!!!'

'delete the fat guy'

some wise words from tony n marc.

rofl.

well...

but the 1st phase catches most of my attention.

like a big slap that woke me up

thats something i've been over looking for everything..

i'm so dao..cus i'm afraid to talk to people..

i expect n wait for em to talk to me..b4 i talk to em.

not counting her..

like a new class..

new envirnment..

i expect people to come over...

its not that i'm arrogant...

not wanting to talk to ppl..

its just that...

i'm just....auto dao mode.

its kinda who i am..

so...

'if u don't open up to her, she won't open up to u'

i need an exception this time dammit..

i can't wait for this..

BUT..

all this talk...

all this confidence..

once i see her...

my brain shuts down..

n my nerves takes over..

its like going stupid mode..

n i get all quiet.

i need someone by me to slap me when that happens =/

shit....

valentine's day is coming..

its now or never.

i miss her.

its just a crush?

2009-02-03T23:51:00.003+08:00

heyo...

crap....

whenever i get loads of cash...

i always think of hw to spend it all away -.-

lets see...

-a new laptop.(mine cmiii)

-a bike.

-iPod speakers with a alarm clock

-new accessories.

-a percussion instrument(i wan indian drums!)

well ya...

i need money management tips..

but my top prio now should be a laptop

or the indian drums...

or e speaker...

dammit.

well..

as everyday goes by..

my interest for my damn course goes weaker...

i go to sch just for e attendence n to hang with my classmates..

trying nt to disturb em too much though..

except e kkb han chiew.

i look forward to nth any more..

life is a irritating fact..

zzz

y cant i be hard working?

screw my working attitude..

jamming sessions pls..

looking forward to those only.

could be more fun though...

everyone gotta be in e groove n beat!

u attracted me..

did i attract u?

i don't know u...

i just feel for u..

is it a crush?

a imature teenage crush?

no wonder i hate chemistry.

i midjudged the chemistry..

a failed test?

i really hope not..

i ain't trying hard enough..

screw this insecure dao-self

that auto triggers whenever i see u...

how i wish i can just crap around with u..

how i wish u could see the real me..

it hurts to see u walk away with him.

got burnt?

2009-01-29T01:47:00.003+08:00

i hate it...

totally fucking hate it..

when u come n yell at me..

without trying to reason with me 1st..

anyone for that matter..

anger n attitude is no smart way to deal with me..

i'll just fucking snap n go beserk..

so to that ng wee wee..

screw u..

bloody square minded nerd..

u can't teach for nuts..

well maybe not teach..

but u sure have no bloody social skills to be a good teacher.

i have no respect for such ppl..

dammit.

spoil my whole day.

btw ya..

i have a anger problem to those who didn't know.

been trying very hard to keep it already.

bear with me.

the fear of opening up..

the opposition takes a different approach..

n finds way to dissapear n ignore u..

am i getting that?

or am i thinking too much

as usual.

i have a bad feeling i'm gonna crawl back up into my shell.

like a fire that has rekindled.

just a puff..

and in a split second..

e fire dies out..

thats all it takes..

easy come easy go.

can i built on it again?

dammit.

fire rekindled

2009-01-28T02:16:00.002+08:00

visited uncle vincent's place in e morning.

few familiar faces that i've not seen for a year..

rather refreshing.

everyone is changing haha..

their looks.

style.

even relationships heh.

have i changed this chinese new year?

i hope so.

just a typical day i guess..

nth 'special' actually happened.

for e afternoon i mean..

evening a whole diff story :)

met yh for dinner.

followed by weixiang.

his girlfriend n her brother who just came back

from visiting.

headed to mac to grab coffees

mac's new ice caramel latte taste rather

similar to my fav caramel machiato from starbucks.

cheaper too.

atleast i have a source of coffee again heh.

n yes..

during our coffee break.

i msged her again.

well..

atleast i had something going..

it wasn't long.

but i'm glad something came out of it.

i'm gonna take this 1 slow.

rushing into things just screws everything up.

i hope to talk to her soon.

its just this small bit..

that has rekindled my fire to carry on.

i only hope i don't get burnt.

2009 good year fer horse?

2009-01-27T05:16:00.002+08:00

well..

according to my parents e horse is gonna

have some good luck this year..

which is about time..

i hope..

lucky colour is white...

which i so happen to choose 2day..thank god.

went to my mom's side 1st..

so awkward as i expected..

we didnt even stay long...

n only about 1/4 of e family was present.

we stayed like ard...30-45mins?

n we left..

which totally sucked..

picked tony up..

n headed to my dad's side.

well..

it was fun 2day.

alot of good laughs i've not had with my couz.

but its like only su n jo..

e rest were like off gambling somewhere..

well it was enuff for me.

ended up being boycotted again..

cheers to that.

really tired...its 5.20 in e morning.

gonna stop here.

well..

i tried to step out of my box alr.

i msged her.

n i didnt really got a reply i expected.

abit dissapointed n sad..

anyways..

i'm gonna try again :)

cus

u're worth it.

thru the monsoon

2009-01-24T01:21:00.004+08:00

well..

went to sch..

for TD lab...

signed my attendance..

n slacked in it for awhile..

until shawn called me asking if i'm heading back

to cchy for cny celebrations.

at 1st i was....

nahx...i have class..

den e stupid U Tin Lin pissed me off..

so i left ard 10.15..

n made my way back to cchy..

got there..

everyone's hair could make it.

BUT MINE!!

yes i cut my hair again..

real short nw..

anyways..

we went into sch thru e back gate..

n everything was smooth from there on.

its good to see all my old teachers..

they are so much more fun.

lively n entertaining than poly.

i so freaking miss sec sch..

e days of sleeping in class..

messing with e teacher...

having a table tats 'ur spot'

a hang out corner in e class..

so much fun it was..

relax..

n i thought i hated sec sch..

dammit.

well..

i finally got my new year stuff..

got myself a volcom low cut shoe..

was on 20% so got it for $68..

n 2 shirts from my fav tshirt store at $57..

well..tats pretty much it..

jamming sessions at RP..

finally.

i got my drum score moving a LITTLE bit..

though i only have 2 rythems only..

their in e direction of which i want em to go..

hoping to build up on them..

need to split more parts n add more actions..

i'm pretty happy tat i actually got to record them..

due to my extreme case of STM.

gotta bring on e spice!!

long train rides make me think

of what i'm gonna/wanna say to u.

chinese new year?

2009-01-23T00:17:00.003+08:00

chinese new year.

a time for celebrations..

n family gatherings.

reunion dinners..

ang pao..

meeting ur distant relatives that u only usually see this period of time.

and for each chinese new year..

it always begins at the reunion dinner

on new years eve.

n thus new year comes there after..

so..

if u don't have a reunion dinner..

does chinese new year come?

if u don't celebrate it with ur family..

does chinese new year come?

well..

my answers will be answered this sunday..

new year's eve.

being boycotted..

sometimes adults are more childish then us teenagers.

pride n ego consumes all man..

despite their age.

went to visit my grandmom's grave in e morning.

this will also be e 1st new year which

we will celebrate without her..

i forsee a heavy cloud of emotions approaching.

including for myself.

this new year..

has no meaning at all to me now..

e excitement of staying over my grand parents place..

with my couz...

crapping n playing e night away

to getting ready wad cloths i wanna get n plan

wad to wear..

how to style my hair..

all those stuff..

this year..

i'm actually doing last min shopping..

so half past ten.

i guess it'll be wishful thinking to say..

'oh how i wish everything will go back to normal'

i just wonder..

how many more chinese new years will be like this.

heh...

maybe i might actually get used to this.

oh..

2days performance was freaking awkward.

its like..

e audience..are all..wth?

we perform finish..

no applause...

ending pose..

no applause..

we bow..

still nothing.

we had to wait for e mc to go..

ZINGO EVERYBODY!~

den they clapped.

wth..

so totally anti-climax.

TCS is fun!!

i..

want..

to..

talk..

to..

her.....

step out of the square?

2009-01-21T00:53:00.003+08:00

"you see this square?

u need to step out of it"

a comment from yong han b4 he trip over a wire..

is that a sign if i do step out of e box i'm gonna fall?

well apart from his unfortunate bad example.

he has a point.

my box has been getting very big lately..

too big for me to climb out..

i look myself in e mirror..

n cant find myself 3-4 years ago..

the person who would make e effort to try..

the person who always starts e conversation..

the person who starts the chase...

the person who kept chasing till he gets it..

to what i am now..

fragile..

n timid..

hiding in e corner of my box..

those were e days..

i would pick up my phone n just drop a 'yo!! wad cha doin?' msg..

or when a msn alert appears and anxiously click it asap

n drop a 'yo!! wad cha doin?'

now..

i cant even talk properly..

i get all scared..

i dun dare pick up my phone..

and if i do..

i scroll over to e name...

stare at it...

n drop e phone back into my pouch..

stares at e comp screen waiting for her to come online..

when she does..

i'll stare at her msn nick..

n go back into playing wow..

for e 1st time...

mr koh yong han is actually right!

i do need to step out of this square..

but there are so much uncertanties outside of it..

so much doubts..

n fears..

its like staying in a dark box for so long..

n when u open e lid..

e flash of light blinds u...

n u rush to close e box once again..

i need bloody sun glasses for goodness sake.

damn it girl...

are u playing me?

i actually thought u would have waited for me as u did for him.

i guess i have yet placed my hopes to high..

i was so glad at e start of class..

u're e reason i come to sch everyday.

i so hate being in e same project group as him..

let the chase officially begin..

i dun wanna lose her..

not her...

not again..

awaken.

2009-01-13T22:47:00.005+08:00

ok...its e 1st time double posting..

its weird..

dammit..

i can't think straight..

i tried to stop gaming today..

n instead..

fcuk..

shes getting into my thick skull..

i wish she were OC or PIPC or even TD..

i'll get full marks for tests..

tick away

as the dust fades off..

the eyes awaken..

deep slumber..

gaining conciousness...

daydreams and regrets..

attraction spurs the heart..

attention captures none..

fear stimulates the soul..

consumes the heart..

messes the brain..

as we wait apon..

answers..

and for one..

so that we can awake..

as one.

love makes u crazy

rushing into things..

my pace is moving as fast as my heart..

whenu run too fast..

u either reach ur destination

with joy n relief..

or u just fall off a cliff..

cus u cant stop ur momentum..

dammit girl..

you have captivated my heart

avoid?

2009-01-13T21:12:00.003+08:00

erm ok..

i placed my hopes to high?

no i dun think so..

i got carried away?

i aint sure..

i gotta get this right asap..

i don't have much time left..

it aint me to rush into things..

but i gotta get it done..

asap..

wadeva e cost..

well almost at any cost..

i cant afford to lose this time..

thursday is the charm..

its e perfect chance..

n if i miss it again..

i can only cont. with wishful thinking.

to design my own future.

2009-01-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

O lvls results 2day.

1 year has passed by so fast..

it seemed not long ago

i was in my cchy uniform..

in e hall..

anxious to collect my results..

mr koh ar..

tsk..

i only can wish u luck into getting into RP now.

n i hope u enjoy ur course with no regrets..

like how i have..

i still cant get my ambition straight on..

a frequently asked qn..

what do u wanna be when u grow up?

up till now...

i still have no freaking idea..

i wanted to be a vet when i was young..

but i hate science..

n i cant bear to cut a animal open.

then i wanted to be a accountant

to take over my dad's company...

look where my results brought me..

then i thought of lawyer..

cus i talk cock sing song..

nahx...gotta be realistic.

then i started enjoying design n art..

nt really started..

started a long time ago..

it just sparked recently..

but then i ask myself..

do i really want it?

is it my typical 'want' and not a 'need'

creative media design has been tempting me

for e past 2-3 years..

but do i really wanna do it?

but 1 thing is for sure..

i sure don't want chem eng for my future..

thats a damn certain fact..

this is just one of my many

stupid decisions in life i made so far..

so i fear...

will i be making my next?

or instead creating it..

but i think..

while i decide on how my life is going to go about..

i wish to do sth i enjoy..

n sth i'm interested in..

so i enjoy life..

n find meaning to it in e process..

instead of tormenting myself

with sth i hate n go no where..

this is my biggest design project ever.

OH YA I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN :)

i won't chicken out..

or else koh yong han has a reason to whack me.

i'm gonna remove this lock

n open a new me.

left4dead! hehehehe

2009-01-12T01:38:00.003+08:00

left4dead hehehe...

give u 5% off.

NAHX!

thx marc for sending it to me..

pretty fun game..

over came e stupid zombies by spamming anything i saw..

no wonder my accuracy lowest.

luan luan lai 1..

NVM!

burst a couple of heads or 2 was fun..

so much more fun while playing with a mic..

went to esplanade 2day..

went to meet up with my theatre studies teammates to get

our presentation done..

Elizabethan era of theatre..

did u noe~~

-costumes costed more than producing a show..

-only males were allowed to act..

(yes even female roles)

-execution's were real..they'll get prisoners on death sentance.

and many cool stuff..

spent 3 hours compiling stuff up..
rather pleased..

KEL THUZAD HAS BEEN SLAIN!

so cool...

helm got out rolled by 3 tmd..

idiot mage...

hate em all..

each day pass

n i keep wondering..

when do i get to see u again.

fears of being burnt

2009-01-11T01:07:00.003+08:00

woke up..6.15am..

got a spike of pain down in e chest..

fell back to sleep again..

n i missed drum.

went to e doctors..

is it really just muscle contraction?

it hurts like fuck..

seriously..

i aint making an excuse to be late for drums.

i hope they dun think that way..

muscle contractions..

leading to affecting my lungs..

n thru e heart in e process?

or am i simply thinking too much.

RP as a new training ground, to me its

a really cool change

e vibe is diff..

n it feels like working at a studio now.

slightly more lively as well...

with students around..

a cooler environment.

and of cus my fav part,

isolation

n no mufflers!

i cant do much 2day in my condition..

but determined to give it all asap...

it sucks to see a drum

but u cant play it

with full energy n strength..

since its e only source of my expression now.

n i take pride in it :)

jamming sessions on friday...

gonna try some cool stuff then..

wooo!

its only when u put ur heart n soul

into it..

everything will show on ur performance..

that aint looking to good on my studies.

i fear..

i fear i'm letting feelings going over my head.

i fear i'm putting my hopes too high..

i fear my judgement..

i fear being over confident..

i fear being cocky..

i fear being ahead of myself..

i fear rejection..

i fear being hated..

i fear being dissapointed by..

i fear being dissapointed..

gonna take a leap of faith..

wish me luck.

flipside.

2009-01-09T00:25:00.004+08:00

the story of how chemical engineering was found

written n authored by lee han chiew

student of class A8D2:

'once there was a fish...

den got chemical lor...

den piyo piyo piyo...

she become a girl!

den she try e chemical on her babies

then they all turn human lor..

then she want to become a boy..

den she sang 'if i were a boy~'

n she become boy lor

thats e story of hw chemical engineering was created.'

yes....i go thru his dumb brainless crap everyday.

stupid fella...

couldn't stop laughing.

all this just cus our chem eng booth for tp open hse

had a stupid fish tank for display.

thanks hc for ur dumb story :))

gonna pick my guitar up

n whipe e dust off

n begin to learn shred it again.

i wan jamming sessions with tony!

we planned this for so very long..

but never got to do it.

i gotta study hard so that i can go jamming without having

to worry bout sub papers.. dammit

ROCK ON!!

thanks wong su ann..

my crazy couz thats left from my family still talking to me.

e only person who i can talk with no regrets..

talk freely n always having a laugh for wadeva e topic.

ppl gt new bf liao le..mai siao siao..

was fun talking to her..

gotta meet up more often..

thanks for making me feel better :)

freaking hell..

my blood lung had a prob 2day..

well last night actually

on my home from bugis on e train which i slept on e journey.

i woke up at ard khatib station to find myself having chest pain.

i kinda ignored it...but it was there..

so i thought i might have ate sth wrong?

but wads e pain doing at my chest..

e pain persisted all e way home...till i went to bed.

e pain was still there...but i was uber tired..

so i slept thru it hoping e pain will go e next day.

wrong.

e pain was still there n even more painful when i woke up

went to sch anyway...

den i realise yawning..deep breaths swallowing talking made e pain

too much to handle.

so during lunch..

e pain was too much n i left sch for home to see e doctor.

bloody hell..doctor scare me n say

my right lung could have collapsed?

some kinda muscle contraction or sth..

she said its common..

nth serious..

but its like..pain?

so she suggested i go get a xray which i did..

e results came back to be normal..

n she said there is nth wrong -.-

den wad e heck is e pain going on in me?

anyway..

she said e pain MIGHT be a sympton to some kinda

long named scientific sickness

which would work like my lungs

getting filled with air

n squeezing my lung...making it like a mini bomb?

which might end up affecting my heart rate n breathing

n might cause death -.-

but according to her...she saids its nth serious..

it better be man..

i cant imagine my lung suddenly go BOOM!
den my name will be in e news for committing a suicide bombing.

crap.

all she gave me were pain killers..

dammit.

it better be alright..

or am i thinking/worrying too much?

yes...it hurts now still..

this is e only type of chemistry

that keeps me going on

to work harder

n drives me everyday.

isolation's defects.

2009-01-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

life is not turning out well..

deep down there is always sth eating me up inside..

what happened to e fuck care attitude i had?

turning so blood emotional over small stuff..

cant control my emotions any more..

zack siew:"ziming ar...u have to find ur problem n solve it!

i dun wanna noe wads ur problem.just fix it."

whats my problem?

breaking down with world of warcraft?

or is world of warcraft my source of subsiding e pain.

if i remove wow..

den i get emo..

i'll just slack at home..

lie in bed..watch tv.

blast tunes into my skull.

i want n need to move on from what happened in '08.

to pick myself up.

get back into e game.

n go get it.

emotions mixed.

confused.

insecure.

afraid.

unsure.

i took a personallity test today.

in e past i was a 70-80% extrovert.

now..

its 63% introvert.

even i was shocked of my results.

my personallity...

everything..

is crumbling like a cookie.

i look forward to play wow.

i look forward to RP friday jamming sessions.

i look forward to composing my own drum piece.

i look forward to a action packed piece.

i look forward to practice drunken fists.

i look forward to more performances.

i look forward to letting my emotions go on e drums.

but.

i'm only looking forward to go for my theatre studies.

be it desperation

be it a crush

be it love

be it attraction

she has gain full attention from me.

dedicated to my late cat 'mama'

2008-12-29T00:17:00.003+08:00

2008 is not the year for me nor my family.

family ties with my dad's side broken..

my grandmother passed away..

my chincilla,'ying ying' passed away..

my break up..

n today..

it was my cat..

why?

why is all this happening?

god is testing how much we can take in life..

or maybe he is punishing us..

for our sins in out previous life..

n yes..

he choose 2008 to throw everything at us...

i presume its everything..

cus i cant take it much any longer..

n thinking to myself..

2008 is coming to an end..

i pray for a good new year in 2009..

n just b4 new year..

my cat passed.

maybe its e full stop god is leaving for us on 2008.

'mama'

the only cat of my 13 that does not stay in my house.

the 1st cat that we had a relationship with..

the cat that brought 3 more into my home n life..

n 5 more from her children.

the cat that lived alone in e cold void deck of block 652.

she was strong.

always over protective.

even spending so much time with her..

she'll still scratch or bite me or my mom.

but still loved by us alot..

why?

why do we love a cat that roams around e void deck everyday.

dosen't like to be pat or touched by us..

or even attacks us?

why?

cus shes e only cat..

shes e only cat that can tell when u open ur door on e 4th floor

n wait to greet u at e lift..

shes e only cat that knows that my mom's car is parking

n waits by e door to greet us..

shes e only cat that knows her name n responses to it.

e only cat we had a real connection.

thats y..

thats e cat we love..

e last i saw her..

was yesterday.

when i came home from drums..

saw her sleeping by my mom's car..

called her..but she was lazy to respond..

so i went up e lift..

shes so lonely..

always alone.

n she died alone.

e most cruel way to go..

alone..

she died with foam in her mouth..

n her arms stretched out trying to crawl..

as if wanting to get help..

a last stuggle for life..

and no..

she didn't have 9 of em.

i wished she did.

n now shes gone..

coming home...walking to e lift will be different forever..

e cat we loved n once knew..

won't be there to greet us anymore..

n no cat can ever replace her..

not one of my remaining 12..

i pray she didn't suffer at her last moments..

i pray she is alright wherever she is..

n i pray her next life will be e best.

no one deservers to die alone..

no one should be alone..

xmas? what xmas?

2008-12-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

well..

25th of december came n past just like that.

woke up at at 2 that day.

n stayed home.

ate kfc for lunch.

n ordered mac for dinner.

everything is so degrading.

from e lonliest cny this year due to family probs.

n now lonliest xmas.

i celebrated xmas in wow myself as well..

family gatherings..

friend outings..

a cosy time with a loved 1.

no...

it didn't happen..

nothing happened.

i miss my family..

i seriously do.

family nt is in my mom n dad..

but my uncles aunts n cousins especially.

from a weekly sunday gathering at my grandparents place..

from a cny gathering full of fun.

to even a reunion dinner.

a xmas party.

to a cold n distant relationship.

i miss everything..

its karma i guess..

my family seems to be e blacksheep of all e others.

the only family with a only child.

e only family whos brothers n sisters backstab my parents

on both dad n mom's side.

a family who is being looked down apon.

n expected to clear up e mess

while we face all e shit they throw at us.

to a family i miss so very much.

i've used up all my help lines already.

~~family~~

~~friends~~

~~girlfriend~~

i've used em all....

n i'm still at e bottom.

gaining nth..

but e jeers of e audiences..

a quote by theodore bagwell:

"we are the prisoners of our own identity"

we are e prisoners of who we made ourselves to be.

n we remain a prisoner of who we are.

but to be who we are not,

we must break out from this prison.

n run..

run from everything.

n start anew

never look back..

n never get caught.

can i break from my own prison?

into oblivion my heart has gone.

2008-12-23T22:19:00.003+08:00

its amazing how u're heart n mind can never get it right.

its so totally split personallity.

sometimes ur heart thinks over ur mind..

n ur brain kicks it when its too late.

or well...e other way for that matter.

i'm facing this huge issue now.

i can't seem to follow any.

1 will rip me apart.

the other screws me up.

temptation,jelousy,hatred,addiction,laziness,idlesness.

only these can explain what i am right now.

alot of fucked up decision been made lately.

even though i'm wrong..

i'll just rebel back..

i've been this way till...

i have no idea hw ppl look at me anymore.

a fear that i might retaliate.

getting pissed when in a confrontation with me.

i just feel i'm losing my hope n trust with everyone around soon.

time will just let all fall n break sooner of later.

i tend to follow my mind so much that all these are happening.

being smart is 1 thing..

but i'm just using my mind to think of ways to just

get out of e real world..

n just slack.

wtf?

self-reflections?

i done em..

i have..

but well.

look were i am..

i noe wads killing me.

but i cont. to let it kill me.

cool eh?

some things can n never will happen.

cus i just dun have e guts to face reality in its face.

either that i just don't want to.

fate is guiding me e way..

n i'm reluctant to take over.

its too late to appologize

project:drum exposure.

2008-12-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

yo ppl...

b4 i get started.

i would like to make things clear that i do not tolerate crap

tags with anoy.

as long u put tat...even if u're my friend or wadeva shy u are

behind that name..

i won't hesitate to just give u a piece of my mind..

so ya..

fuck off.

(ps. to tat dick.i dun have to ans to u bout my 'race',

i use wadeva term i like.)

anyway.

project:drum exposure

its a little thing that i wish to like do?

just to kill time n see how it goes.

i've nt been to drums too active lately.

due to sickness..exams..etc..

been rather low profile..

haha...sry bout that.

anyway..

been a youtube surfer recently.

(as my damn cpu crashed..

so no wow for bout a week alr..

so ya..video surfing on my lappy)

n i feel that there should n can be more videos bout festive drums.

n i wanna add more of these up :)

(of cus nt any of zingo performing pieces)

like...variation of rythms..

style. stunts.

stuff like that.

its like...i wanna boast what we can give as a group as well..

hope it can work as a little moral booster as well..

but anyway..

this is still a premature idea..

i wanna build on it though..

i just had this idea strike me like 30mins ago..

i don't really know if it'll be a good idea?

i'll just look like a fool if this fails..

but who cares heh..

i just want a excuse to get out of wow too..

need to get world of ziming back in track

b4 i head back to world of warcraft.

well...tmr is drum practice..

lets see how things go.

gotta go do some persuation heh..

ciaos!

two can play the same game.

Am i really alright?

2008-12-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

i don't feel right...

this maybe totally screwed up..

but ya...

i still don't feel like myself..

damn i'm getting skinny..

1 meal per day..

just cant get it down my system..

lack of sleep?

getting my insomnia problem back again..

can't sleep...dammit.

sleeping at wee hours..

n waking up either real early..

or zombie all e way to 3-4 in e afternoon

i guess there are 2 main reasons..

1.world of warcraft has eaten my soul.(dk pwns!)

2.a crush?

yes...

it seems fcuked up..

but ya..i have a new crush..

woopeedoo..

a change of heart..

yes...

i'm back in e race..

lol

seems so bad to treat it as a race..

imagine she reads this post..

hoseh..

well...

sch sucks..duhx

can never get that right

1st day of exams

OC2..

CHUI!
tmr pipc..

more CHUI!

thurs TD

even more CHUI!
fri applied math..

nt so CHUI...

heng..

lol

hols next week...

getting geared for naxx 10 man run...

wooo!

hope i get into e main team..

best if off-tank :D

(yes...i'm a wow addict)

The Elysium..

we need healers n tanks..

I force this hate into my heart cause its my only friend.

She crossed over e line too many times

2008-12-02T19:01:00.005+08:00

well..things aint looking very good now..

i'm losing my tempter ever so often now..

i can't stand anything now..

life is such a irritating fact..

anyway..

just a little sth of what happened?

who e fuck will rub in ur face e reason tat u broke up?

which asshole in e right mind woud do that?

well if that asshole aint ur fren but ur enemy..

its still understandable.

but..

from ur own freaking mom..

which parent does that?

went to sch n shared my probs..

i can tell that all my frens mom aint this fucked up

they console em

give em comfort

while i gt a bitch who rubs it in my face..

ya some of u might be thinking i'm too much to call my mom a bitch

well...try being in my shoes..

n get that out of ur system.

she dosent noe who i am..

i've been keeping my private life from her as low as possible..

why?

cus she always has to interfier.

ya...ppl will say its out of love..

fine...let her noe..

e prob is...

she always screws it up..

from a young age...up to now..

when i feel terrible..

when i feel in e dumps..

i just wanna go home n relax..

she always has to add fucking salt into e wounds..

its out of concern..true...

but she is a fucking retard at trying to make u feel better..

so cheers to e understanding mom i have..

ya..all my friends say shes a really nice person..

duhx....u aint her child..

so don't judge me by my hatred towards her..

i can't stand it no more..

thx yonghan for being there when i needed someone

n thx fer letting me crash at ur place..

really appreciate it..

i don't seem to have anyone else to turn to anymore..

esp not family..

i lack that in my life..

thx to my friends in sch too...

i guess i've made u guys worried too...

thx fer e concern..

i've been thinking..

2 can play e same game of pretend n be happy..

well screw that idea in my opinion..

even right now...

i aint sad no more..

i'm freaking furious of everything..

right now its just a time bomb..

n i'm so gonna blow soon..

just 1 spark will do..

i have no idea wth i might do..

a mental breakown is in e process..

i guess me wanting to study for my term test

is all going e drain..

well...i did hold 1 part of e bargain..

i aint playing wow..

thinking of wad to do to get out of e hse now...cya..

i've found a new fish

the story must go on.

2008-11-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

i ain't a very friendly guy..

i only act like a very friendly guy..

well thats wad i hear though..

i can only act..

no wonder i enjoy drama so much..

i get to hide myself..

e real me is a shy guy..

who dosent talk to anyone in class..

it takes only great friends to get me out..

or a whole lot of time b4 tat happens..

well....i'm sure my fellow drama classmates are feeling that way..

cus tats hw i feel bout myself.

i have no aim i guess..

i just like to have fun..

but duhx..i can't stay young n play forever..

hw nice that would be though..

gonna fail big time in this term..

i just can't focus..

off my com etc..

take my books out...

n stare...

slap myself n force myself...

n stare...

n tahdah...

i studied 2 chapters by flipping e pages.

am i emo?

i have no clue..

i don't noe y i feel i have no friends while i have loads of em..

i still feel...

hw do u say..

alone?

wtf am i looking for?

i seemed to have lost my clique..

damn poly life..

secondary sch is where e real fun is..

i rather keep short hair n wear uniform n white shoes again

just 1 more time...

do i go fishing again?